I’ll never forget the Mercury Retrograde when I fell and injured my leg. Many of you probably remember seeing the footage I shared from my Nest camera. At first, I brushed it off as just a clumsy moment, but it turned out to be much more. It happened on the very first day of Mercury Retrograde, just as I was throwing myself full speed into my blog. In a matter of moments, I went from being on top of my game to being confined to my bed for weeks, grappling with severe pain.
During that time, I was left alone with my thoughts, which felt like pouring salt into my physical wounds. The days blurred together, and I spiraled into a deep depression. My blog, my content, and, most painfully, my life came to a grinding halt. I was no longer the person I had built up for the world to see—no longer “Calimoon.” I felt like little Tammy again—vulnerable, isolated, and struggling to mend my own wounds.
It was a familiar and unwelcome feeling of abandonment, one I thought I had left behind. I had no choice but to confront it. What was I going to do? Distract myself with a shopping spree? I couldn’t even walk. Try to soak away my troubles in the bathtub? That was impossible; the warm water would only make my wounds burn. Every one of my usual coping mechanisms had been stripped away in that fall. So, I had to face it all. And I did.
I won’t go into every detail of what I endured and how I got through it because that journey was deeply personal. But what I want you to take from this is simple: running from your problems will only bring them back to you, often in ways you can’t ignore. Distracting yourself with outings, indulgences, or avoidance may offer a temporary escape, but it keeps you from truly growing and healing.
When things start to fall apart, they’re not happening to you; they’re happening for you. This experience forced me to confront myself and grow in ways I never imagined. Did I ask to fall and end up crying for three months? No. But I did ask for guidance and to help others facing similar struggles.
So please, learn from my experience. Avoiding your pain and trauma will only catch up to you, sometimes in the form of a fall captured on a doorbell camera, leaving you stuck and unable to move forward for months. Don’t wait for that kind of wake-up call.
Did you like this storytime? Do you want more storytimes?
Yes, Aliens next please
Yes. Anything
Si. Mexican storytime, please.
No, I like being bored
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